His Face Never Changes – an illustration

I drew this picture during the fall of 1995 using pencil, colored pencils, and ink.

The face in the middle is the standard comic book “masculine’ expression – calm, cool, and collected.  The unflappable “Don Draper” (click here to see what I mean).

Yet, underneath the confident veneer, a torrent of emotion rages – anger, lust, shame, envy, apathy, insecurity, and grief.  So many men that I have known suffer from this kind of internal confusion.  This is  why so many men experience mid-life crisis, feelings of suicide, and an inability to express themselves.  This is also why men generally do not like to cry.  If a tear falls, the dam is likely to burst.  They simply are unwilling to go there.  They are too afraid of the consequences of allowing weakness.  Too afraid of showing vulnerability.  So, they toughen up and keep going…until…they can’t go anymore.  And when this happens, when the clay feet of feigned fleshly confidence crumbles, when the jig is up, when the thin veneer of “Don Draper cool” gives way – it’s a disaster.

Christ teach us humility.  Teach us to come out of hiding.  Teach us the gospel strength that is found in weakness.  Teach us that only Jesus can cover our shame.